Monday, August 31, 2009
Y is it always so hard 2 jus spit it out??
U kno everythins gonna b fine.... Still y dis hesitation??? Dis awkwardness....???
M glad m not d only 1 on dis path neway....
Despite all...... Der's a warmth in dis.... A spl kinda happiness!!!
Wish i cud scream n say wat i want to in front of d whole world.......
Still d same awkwardness creeps into ma head...n webs all around ma brain
May b dats xactly wots happening on d other end!!!
Hmmmm...... The 'Other end'!!!!
Speekin abt dat..... dese days dat 'awkward' feeling z slightly vanishing....
Its becomin a part of a daily routine
Hv got habituated 2 dis way of living ma lyf.....
Or is d rite word 'Addicted'??
I donno...... Still confused... Damn confused!!!!!
Darnnnnnn!!! M such a dumbo....... :(
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Bt u'll neva realize hw much a person 2 whom v can talk 2..... hu'd listen wot u hv 2 say....really means, until u r left all alone!!! "
2day mng itself v had Draping... Malini D's session!!!
She always makes ma knee caps both wrestle
Her jus 1 stare z enof 2 make d whole class shiver
Dats Malini !!!
Bt i lyk her... Al though she scares me a gr8 deal, i shud admit dat she's a really gud n able teacher
N do hv gr8 respect 4 her
2day u kno wot happened??
V wer supposed 2 bring brown sheet 2 d class n i 4got (nothin new abt dat)
Den gathering all ma strenghth i went 2 her n said d prob n asked d permission 2 go n get it frm ma room
She was lyk "I cnt help it !!" Not really angry, bt yeah... maintaing her usual serious tone
Well she din really want 2 scold me 4 a such a silly thing
Bt cudnt giv an excuse jus 2 me.... Der wer quite a few ppl hu hadnt brought it
No matter hw many times she has scolded me, i kno she do hv a sorta compassion 4 me
May b seein ma pathetic situation :P
After a while she only asked d rest of d class n got me a piece of sheet wich sm1 had as xtra
Still ma mood got off :(
I kno m being silly..... May b 'Over sensitive' wud suit here betta.
I cudnt stop thinkin abt it during d class
D more i thot abt it, d more i got depressed
It wasnt abt ma'am scoldin me @ al.....
Things so happened dat...... ummmmmm..... errrr..... I felt all alone!!!
Wid not a single soul 2 care abt me n a few hu secretly rejoiced seein wot I was goin thru
It really hurts!!!
Dis z wot i had written in d beginning in d red letters all abt!!
I had 2 try so hard 2 blink bak dose tears dat wer tryin 2 escape ma eye lids
N evn mor hard 2 wear a smile n act cool while facing ma classmates
Cathy was keepin on askin 4 dis n dat
And I cud hardly manage bringing ma voice out :(
Bt b4 d 1st break itself i was bak 2 normal luckily.
>> Den Brunch
>> Bak 2 Drapin
>> Lunch Brk
>> AOT (Appreciation of Textiles), a dumb subject
>> Again a brk
>> FID (Fashion Illustration & Design), Fatima n her Bina Abling... Ufff!!!
>> Yet noder brk (had a chaat frm canteen)
>> Bak 2 FID
>> Bak 2 room...... Finally!!!
I was so eager 2 write 2day's blog
N den as usual, i came n opened orkut n FB
Lotsa frds online......
Weneva i think of not chattin, all ma frds seems 2 find a particular interest in comin online
N i easily giv in too...
N lyk always m writin dis blog late nite :P
2day after a few days' gap, ma frd Anson was online, hum i call 'Thotti' (Coz he's too lean n tall... 6" i guess)
He had lost his wallet along wid his debit card n coll ID n 5000 bucks 2 days back
So he was a bit downcast abt dat
Well i kno xactly hw dat feels... Coz i too hv been thru d same situation
It tuk abt a week 4 me 2 get over it
I was feelin so guilty 4 makin ma mom's hardwork go 4 nothin.... 2 some filthy jerk's hands, jus bcoz of ma carelessness :(
I had cried so bitterly dat day
Dat week was 1 of d WORST weeks i evr had 2 go thru due 2 som other reasons as well
N @ dat time i din hav ne1 wid hum i cud share all dese
Ans was in Kerala dat time
Apart frm ma sissy, he z ma only buddy 2 whom i share ma evry lil happinez n probs...ummm well...almost all
Smtimes i'll hv 2 censor a few part... Bt its k
So dis z d whole point.....
I kno hw it feels wen u don hv anyone 2 pour out all ur griefs n frustrations
So jus lent him some of ma time
Well i did try 2 make him feel betta.... Donno hw far i've succeded in dat,
Bt still.... @least i tried....
Hmmm.... Rite nw he's online in Mesngr....
Wot d hell z he doin der so late neways???
Watevaaa..... Nona ma bussinez!!!
I myself is a nite owl n commentin on others.... hmmm
Chalo... lets call it a day nw
Finally as concludin, lemme tell ya guys....
(In case som insane person z mad enof 2 read ma crazy posts.....)
Do try bein a lil sensitive 2 dose hu r goin thru some rough time
Try 2 b compassionate rather dan turning ur bak on 'em
Giv a shoulder 2 cry on.... a lil time 2 comfort 'em
Trust me... It'll feel lyk heaven 2 dat person
Plzzz don miss a chance 2 make som1 happy
Hu knos.... It may happen 2 u as well !!
Put urself in deir shoes n think.... U'll kno jus wot u hv 2 do :)
"Treat others d way u want urselves 2 b treated"
Monday, August 17, 2009
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Its been a really nice day.... While lukin over all........ its been a pleasant n nice week
I donno after all wots wrong wid Mr. Goddy...
He's supposed 2 bring some kinda twist in ma lyf weneva smthin z abt 2 get rite
Bt one whole week passed off smoothly
N i find myself happy..... :)
May b he's on a holiday... :P
Sad 2morro z monday....
All ma sunday nites r gloomy jus bcoz of dis bloody monday
I don remeb a single day i hv waited 4 monday 2 come
Friday was always ma fvrt day wid 2 holidays ahead
Wot d hell m i goin on babbling??
Well d thing z, m not really used 2 dis whole blogging stuff
So... a bit confused
Bt rite nw i feel lyk keepin on writing watever comes 2 ma mind
M watchin d video "I got a feeling" by Black Eyed Peas nw
2day only ma frd Sumi gave dis song.
So jus checkin it out
2day u kno wot i did d whole day??
Was sleepin most of d time....
Went 2 ma LG's place n der also.... Zzzzzzz.....
Some sleepy ghost seems 2 be entered ma body
N m yawning nw..... Hwaaaaa.......!!!!!!
N hu's dis giving me missd calls @ dis hr??
Lemme go check
Hmmmm.... Sajithoottan.... Jus lyk i guessed
Well he's Sajith Abraham... Ma schoolmate
A gr8 buddy.....
He gives all his frds missd b4 he goes 2 bed
Dats our style of wishin gunnite :)
I miss 'em all....... dose gud old days....
Sad dat i cnt get 'em bak again.......
I used 2 hate dose days... ma class....ma skool.....
Bt nw..... m yearning 2 go bak n relive dose beautiful moments
Ma mom was rite.... Skool days wer indeed d golden days of lyf
Bt lyk evry1 else i was interested in gettin outta d shell n get 2 d coll
All dose memories.... Not really in sepia.... Bt sure is nostalgia!!!