Confuseddd !!!!

Y is it always dis confusion??
Y is it always so hard 2 jus spit it out??
U kno everythins gonna b fine.... Still y dis hesitation??? Dis awkwardness....???
M glad m not d only 1 on dis path neway....
Despite all...... Der's a warmth in dis.... A spl kinda happiness!!!
Wish i cud scream n say wat i want to in front of d whole world.......
Still d same awkwardness creeps into ma head...n webs all around ma brain
May b dats xactly wots happening on d other end!!!
Hmmmm...... The 'Other end'!!!!
Speekin abt dat..... dese days dat 'awkward' feeling z slightly vanishing....
Its becomin a part of a daily routine
Hv got habituated 2 dis way of living ma lyf.....
Or is d rite word 'Addicted'??
I donno...... Still confused... Damn confused!!!!!
Darnnnnnn!!! M such a dumbo....... :(